Here's my semi-weekly entry of enstars shit I've done....

RINGING EVIL PHONE IS HERE IN ENG AND IT'S BEEN INCREDIBLE. I PROBABLY HAVE OTHER THINGS TO UPDATE ON BUT I'VE LOVED THIS SONG SINCE IT PREMIERED DURING THE 9TH ANNIVERSARY STREAM AND I'M SOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY IT'S HERE!!!! I first squeed about it during my brief but excited 9th anni stream post and then I did the deranged thing of saving the 500 login whistles screenshot of CN for 1.5 years just to see if ENG also got 500 whistles.

AND WE DID!!!!!!!!!!


told y'all I held onto the CN login page XD
Anyway, I got Natsume number four yesterday, so just one more to max!!!!!! I remember being sad that I wasn't able to get more than one copy in JP or CN, so I'm more than making up for it~ I got really lucky with the gacha and got two copies of Hokuto, so I have the whole shuffle and 110% rate up~

The story is even better than I remember....largely cuz I think I read the first half when it released and forgot to go back to read the second half D: So now that I've read it in English, it's even funnier~ Ms. Akuma being the mangaka's name made me cackle out loud XD

OH GOD WAIT, OTHER EXCITING THINGS HAPPENED IN ENGSTARS THIS PAST WEEK!!!!!!!! The new face kiddos (Esu, Ibuki, Kanna, Yume, and Raika) are finally here, which is so fucking wild.....still feels like they just got revealed recently but it's been two years now :0 And the merge game is here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY FAVORITE GLOBALSTARS EXPERIENCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

still kicking myself for not maxing HiMERU the first year ngl

BUT!! This year's was a complete surprise, since Liz and I both thought it'd be someone without a global exclusive card....but nope!!! It's Ritsu, who already has one~ And the first scout box 5* is Makoto, who also already has one (though his was a promo one for a collab, so that makes more sense). This year's theme is a breath of fresh air, since last year's felt like a less good version of the year before...


NOT THIS TIME, THOUGH!!! this time the merge is computer and video game themed!!!! I love it *w*
Usually Ritsu and I have beef because he betrays me in the gacha but this theming is soooooo good. His card is super cute + I love the outfit, and I actually managed to get Makoto in CN!!!! I didn't go for him in ENG cuz I'm saving all my resources for Ringing evil phone, so I'm glad I got him somewhere. I'm aiming to max him in both ENG and CN, but we'll see...ENG is my priority for sure!!!! Though the second half is delayed in ENG cuz of our server anniversary, so there's less chance of burning out on merging like what happened last year.

In JP enstars news, I had some great gacha luck and solo'd a second copy of Niki's BMU card!!!! So I'm set for the big year end tour event- STREAM EX: ONLY YOUR STARS!. I have mixed feelings about the song, since it's a different version of a song we already had (much like the tour back in February), but.......the ability to make your otp do a duet at the end is unmatched.


they can never take Double Face from me ;w;


also there's a really cool mini campaign thing with stars and constellations and I'm gay I love them so much ♥
Anyway. That's it for enstars news (for now) because....I have a job interview next week!!!!!! The adult store company I worked for is finally hiring at one of their remaining Baltimore locations, and the district manager promised that anyone who'd been laid off from the closed store could be rehired if there were available positions. It's sadly part time instead of full time, but part time is still better than nothing at all. So I just have to interview and I should be good to go *w*

They can't keep from the dildos forever~

uhhhhhhhhh

oh my god it's gotten so hot I'm fuckin dyin D:

OH RIGHT. We rearranged our bedroom some and I'm loving it but I'm tired of writing this entry, so I'll try to take some pics and update y'all on my refreshed living space soon!!!

Which is to say...mental health has beaten my ass down so badly the past 6 months that I basically dropped off the (digital) earth. Work was busy up until the store I was working at shut down, so I got all the stress of retail during the holidays and having to do store closing stuff!!! GREAT!!!!!!!! And then without the structure of work, I fell off of taking my meds and have been struggling basically since the beginning of the year.

anyway.

I'm not gonna make promises about being on top of things again, but I do want to try to, since dreamwidth really helped me keep track of time when I was unemployed last year.

So. idk where I'm going here, but I will hopefully see y'all around some more ♥

I GOT THE JOB!!!!!!!!!!
Despite my anxiety about ever finding a job again after being out of work for so long, I kicked ass at both interviews and got a job offer almost immediately following the second one :D I honestly can't wait to get back to selling sex toys; there's a reason it was my career for nearly a decade. I really do love it!

Anyway. I don't have a whole lot to say because I've been having bad depression following being sick. I fell out of the habit of being on dreamwidth/icon making/etc while sick, I've been really struggling to get back to it ;w; I hate when my brain is like "oh here's a thing you love, no you don't get to do it :)"

bluh bluh bluh

I finished my OG FFVII replay and it was even better than my memories, which is impressive considering how much I loved it as a teen. I have a lot of thoughts and feels that I need to put into words but I'm not feeling with it enough to do so also I don't want to go through the massive amount of screencaps I took to make a coherent post lmao

uhhhhhhhhhhhhh what else is coming up in my life.........

The Double Face climax, aka Last Mission, is coming up in ENG soon!!!!!! Can't wait to cry about their divorce unit breakup all over again ;w; Depending on how competitive it is, I'm debating going further than just maxing Madara's 5* card and actually tiering...since who knows when/if there will be another DF event...sobs.

OH RIGHT!!! I am delighted to admit that I'm wrong about something: The Project SEKAI x Ensemble Stars!! collab is coming to the world wide servers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's running in CN right now and will be running in ENG in......late August, literally over a year before its regular slot in the schedule XD idk what they're gonna do about Raika's feature scout that's supposed to run at the same time, because ENG hasn't gotten the new children yet :T

STILLLLLLLLLLLL!!! I'm so fucking excited, both for the overall event and the really good promo card of Leo where he's holding up the VOCALOID app on an iPad. It's so cute and also the best promo 5* they've ever given out, so that'll be nice ;D

I don't have anything smart left to say :T I'm still recovering so like...brain not fully online...

WAIT YES MY KITTY CAT NUIS FINALLY MADE IT FROM CHINA!!!!!!!!!!!!


they're soooooooo much bigger than the bear nuis I gotta take a family picture, but for now plz enjoy them with a lavender matcha frappe I got at a newly opened bakery~
And we're finally getting our car repaired this weekend!!! It's been a long time coming of saving up for it, but now it's happening!!!!!!! And just in time for me to start my new job, too. Liz and Pat can carpool cuz their jobs are nearby and both are 9-5, but mine is completely different. Fingers crossed it doesn't need more repairs than expected!!!!

Finally starting to feel better, which means I now have to fight the mental illness that says "since you stopped doing something every day, now you'll never be able to do it again!!!!!!" about things like graphics, updating my fucking journal, you know.....super helpful stuff like that ;w;

ANYWAY.

I've had this tab open for like a week and been unable to keep writing BUT NOT FOR LONG!!!!!!!!!! I have great news!!!!!!!

I HAD A JOB INTERVIEW TODAY AND ALREADY GOT A CALL BACK FOR A SECOND INTERVIEW IN A COUPLE DAYS I'M SO PUUUUUUUUUMPED!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway. Last week Pat had to pick up lube, so we went to Lion's Den, which acquired a different small chain of adult stores a few years back, and I just. idk man. I walked in and it was everything I'd been missing ;w; They weren't hiring at that location, but they were hiring an assistant manager at another location. So I went home and almost immediately applied to it.

Jump to today: I figured weekdays would be the best time to swing by and follow up with a manager, and I was right. The store manager was in, and she was supposed to interview someone today...but they didn't show up. SO. GOOD FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The interview went so well, it was everything I'm looking for in working in retail again, and just...idk man I felt like I really clicked with the store manager. And I did! She called me back less than two hours I left to set up a second interview, this time with the district manager. It's on Wednesday afternoon and I am SO EXCITED I want to go back to slinging dildos. I miss my stupid fun retail life ;w;

It would be evenings and weekends, which sucks but also I haven't worked in 2.5 years and I'm going insaaaaaane I need to get out of the fucking house. And this seems like SUCH a good fit.

Tomorrow is Miryokucon the first, aka Baltimore's new anime convention, since Otakon so rudely left >:O It's gonna be small, but probably not the smallest I've ever been to- that honor goes to either Tigercon or Erie Anime Experience, both of which are no more ;w;

I'm "closet" cosplaying in a sense, which basically means that I didn't have time to make Knives and am instead being Rem, brought to you by the Torrid clearance rack, Target, and my hoard of extra wigs XD Liz is gonna be Legato...sorta. They're gonna have his super cool skull shoulder piece and nothing else, because, once again, time issues meant we didn't finish the coat.

Uhhhhhhhhhh

Pat took tomorrow off work, so we might go down slightly earlier than Liz and just sorta vibe? I'm not sure yet; I'm trying to take it easy.

OH RIGHT oh my goddddd my memory is shit. I had my official interview at Pen Boutique today!!!!! I just have to meet with the owner next week and they should be making me an offer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The money is less than I would like but the work environment is much nicer, so I'm willing to take it. Fingers crossed everything goes well!!!!

Also, I have homework I need to finish before the weekend starts :TTTT

I can update this or write in my diary, and guess which one is more convenient? XD Someday I'll actually upkeep all aspects of my life, but.....not today, lmao.

Last week I got my first vaccine shot!! Pat got his yesterday and Liz gets theirs tomorrow, so we'll all be fully vaccinated around the same time :D I'm looking forward to a better summer than last year, at the very least!!!

Speaking of that- Liz and I went to the mall for the first time in like, a year, and caught up with some of the employees at the Hot Topic, who were super excited to see us :D The store manager is fantastic and I've actually known her since college, she's been there so long. So that was really nice ;w;

We're once again short-staffed at work because a bunch of people called out and some of our newly hired people aren't as reliable as expected >< So that's been fun!!! Probably gonna have to work an extra day again this week, which I'm super not thrilled about. Just....bluh. I dunno, is it so hard to find people who work out????

In better news, I actually wrote and posted a drabble this week!!! I joined chenqing_100 and managed to write something for the first prompt. I'm really hoping I can use drabbles to get back into writing more regularly again, but we'll see. Work burnout has been murderous, and I don't really see it changing any time soon...

In the middle of working on the order, I decided it was time to fix all the images on my LJ account, because....11 am on Sunday is the best time to fix all the fucking photobucket links, sure!!!! Cool!!!!!!!

This involved screaming in frustration because I couldn't find where I had all the customizations for my graphics journal over there. Like. Okay. Cool. I bought a paid account for my main journal, thinking that would let me edit the style layers.

NOPE.

So then I had to also buy a paid account for my graphics journal because....apparently I was just throwing money away when I was 21???? And I thought putting all the images and shit in a custom layer instead of CSS what a good idea????????

drags hands down face

Anyway. I'm gonna try to get back to actually working at work, what a concept XD

I LOVE KEEPING TRACK OF WHAT I DO BUT THEN LIFE GETS BUSY AND I FORGET EVERYTHING OFUHSDIUFH!!!!!!!!

Fuck I haven't updated since before Katsucon, whoops!! I would like to write a proper Katsu recap but I don't have the brains for it right now :T And I'd really just like to say hi to dreamwidth and post a few minor updates.

-work has been insanely busy but we've had record breaking sales so like, yay
-I got a small part time job at the jewelry studio Pat works at, doing photo editing and listing pieces for sale online
-Liz dyed my hair and it's a beautiful bright red/maroon/purple experience now, I love it
-I started working on a bullet journal planner and I'm already way behind on it, but I'm having fun
-Ritalin has been really helpful but I'm still forgetful as fuck, so that's where I still struggle

Basically I need to get my shit organized but getting my shit organized is a continual struggle where I feel like there just aren't enough hours in the day to get everything done but also have downtime to chill. Ya know, the usual!!

Once I outline it better, I'll return with a katsu update/recap/whatever. It was an amazingly fun time though, so it is good news. I just did a lot at it so there's a lot to write!!!

so I work retail, if that wasn't clear already from the whole selling sex toys for a living thing. anyway!! I love my job and I love the company that I work for, but hot damn if the holidays aren't crazy as fuck.

wednesday was oddly slow but today is definitely making up for it >< I'm working 10 hours tonight and then 8+ tomorrow probably, depending on if my coworker wants me to help her some with the evening shift due to, you know, it being fucking busy as hell.

on the plus side, we got the christmas tree up and decorated yesterday!!!! somehow we lost the tree topper a couple years ago??? so we finally got a new one that I'd been eyeing up at Kmart...mostly because it looks like a fucking kingdom hearts attack. like, I feel like Xemnas is about to attack us thru the tree star, and I love it :D

I also managed to straighten up around the house some yesterday, which is always an accomplishment. I decorated a little on the tv stand and made my desk not a complete mess. so all in all, good things!

( some cleaning & decoration pics!! )

I still have to wrap presents, but the rest of Liz's gifts haven't arrived yet. so hopefully I'll be able to do that tonight or tomorrow after work!!! :D