look, I did all 4 days of Otakon, what do you want from me? XD Anyway, I found this while trying to organize my Google Photos some and just thought it was silly ;D


There's just a lot going on here, okay? We were packing up the car to go to Miryokucon for the day and it's just...Knives body pillow, akeshu ita bag, a case of water bottles, our badges featuring lanyards covered in buttons & charms, and Liz getting into the car to drive because Legato is apparently the ultimate driving gay ;D


Also, I got the Vash & Knives plushes I ordered in the mail today :D they're very soft and cute and I'm gonna take them everywhere~~~~
Anyway, since apparently every fucking week there's some new thing, my dad had to be rushed to the hospital last week and he was diagnosed with leukemia. He's being released today and is doing better, but I don't know any exact details yet ;w; Because like, that's what I needed, right???? I needed my dad to have cancer.

RELATED to that: I completely forgot I had signed up to get a free piercing last Thursday - courtesy of Pat getting lost on the free section of Craigslist - and thankfully, they called me to remind me...approximately an hour after I found out my dad was in the hospital and about an hour and a half before the appointment. So, Liz and I hopped in the car and booked it to Rockville, because yes I agreed to drive an hour+ away, during rush hour traffic, to get a piercing XD

We made it in time, though!! And tbh the adrenaline rush was very much needed. So now I have my first ever dermal piercing, and it was honestly very easy? Barely any pain during the piercing and it stopped hurting in under 24 hours. I only remember it's there if I accidentally catch it on my clothes or something.


IT MAKES ME FEEL VERY COOL!!!! I'd wanted one for awhile, so I'm glad I got a free chance to take the leap~
And now today I have physical therapy, which...I dunno. I signed up while I was working the cake job and like super needed it, but now I'm not sure if I wanna pay $40/session for it :T We'll see.

OH MY GOD RIGHT THE BEST NEWS OF ALL THIS MESS: I finally have both my ADHD meds again, so I am getting shit done!!!!!!!!!!! :D

So I didn't quite sober up but I screamed out my feelings enough to finally sit down and write so I did and I dare the world to cancel me for writing plantcest when tristamp is just so so so much of Knives trying to fuck his brother.

But I wrote something and it's good and it's stream of consciousness with bits of poetry because that's what I do now, I guess, and I like it.

Title: it's (not) a betrayal
Fandom: Trigun
Pairing: Knives/Vash
Rating: Teen
Word count: 577
Warnings/Tags: Incest, Codependency, Stream of Consciousness
Summary:

And they never see eye to eye unless they do and Vash can’t won’t forget what they used to be even as he desperately wants to pull Nai into the here and the now, because how else will he learn to live?

Vash and Knives pull each other in opposite directions and it's a tragedy from open to close; stagnating in remembered perfection is the same as death.

I guess I could have done this when I posted that other Trigun fic the other day but no I hate being consistent on my personal journal XD

Also part of this came from something Pat said while drunk:
“Trying to hold onto a moment when things were perfect is the same as death.”

and I just had to write something that used it because it's so so so perfect for these idiots

(I love them)

(I wish they could fix their problems but uhhhhhhhhh yeah)