I've been fuckin killin it with perfect combos recently!!! I do have a couple perfect lock cards for support, but still- it's going really well :D I decided to push myself to go beyond just easy songs - tho it's not like I've made it through all of those yet - and rise to the challenge.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAND~~~~


take that, Sei Shounen Yuugi!!! your nearly 500 notes can't defeat me!!!!!!!!!
This was a bit beyond what I thought I could do, but since I'd already gotten perfect combos on easy and normal + I had to play it for the daily playlist reward...I went for it. And I was rewarded with my risk taking :D

tbh I screencap it every time I get a perfect combo for the first time, so I have a bit of a collection now. I'm just kinda hoarding them for myself, but I figure I may as well document them here.

( behold!!! the spoils of war, aka my taptap addiction )

And that's it...for now ;D I have more, but I didn't wanna comb through my google photos + upload all of them to my hosting. I'm sleepy.

Honestly, I'm really pleased with enstars now that it's been a solid year of playing. I love the rhythm game aspect, perhaps even...more??? than love live??????? I never got quite so dedicated to perfect combos. Fuck, I never even got this dedicated to full combos. But enstars is just fun to play; sometimes I can't put it down.

don't get me started on the appeal of the MV outfits it is dangerous for me, a person who used to be addicted to gaia online XD


aaaaaand final accomplishment: I was able to pick up a copy of La Mort Ritsu from the memorial coin shop, since I started playing in the middle of the event last year and was heartbroken I couldn't get enough points to get him ;w; BUT NOW HE'S HERE!!!!!
okay okay it's after 2 am, it's time for sleep :T

I'm sick and procrastinating working on my website, so lemme share the trophies of my mental unwellness~~~


hell yeahhhhhhhhhhhhh I got four copies of Madara!!!! I had originally told myself I was just gonna get three, but apparently I'm 1) fucking stupid and 2) delusional. soooooooo worth the all nighter I pulled on the last day to get him ;D


AAAAAAND ALL FIVE COPIES OF KOHAKU!!!!!! I distinctly remember after fleeting spring night saying that I wasn't gonna max another event 5* until Altered and/or the Double Face climax, but as previously stated: delusional idiot XD
I feel like I don't have a lot to say because I've been sick most of the past week or so...some sort of fucking mono flare up, since apparently getting covid can reactivate mono. So that's cool!!!!! I've really been enjoying reliving being 16, it's sooooo great ><

groans

Also, I've committed to going up to Pittsburgh for Thanksgiving (barring still being sick, obviously), so that's either gonna be fine or be a giant disaster. Who knows with my family!!!!!!!! I'm also bringing Lumos along, because I've been having a lot of anxiety leaving her alone. So, I've been helping get her ready for a four hour car ride, something every cat totally loves and would look forward to. She did good going on a mini outing to get bubble tea though, so I'm hopeful.

I've mostly stalled out on writing and web design, largely due to being sick. I'd like to stop feeling like absolute ass so I can get back to having fun. Like....this sucks ;w; No one likes being sick, but I've already dealt with this!!! I thought I was done with mono!!!!!!!!!! I EXTRA hate that it's kicked in around the time I had it the first time, so that's definitely setting off some fucking triggers or SOMETHING stupid like that in my brain.

urgghhhh I don't wanna just whine. Lemme share more enstars crap so I can maybe feel better~

( it's really just more game screencaps and squeeing but it's my journal and I do what I want )

OH I FORGOT!!! Liz ordered me the incredibly cute unicorn kigus for the patty three enstars nuis...and like yes, I don't have any of them yet, but I plan on ordering Madara + Kohaku once I have the money. So, they're gonna be so fuckin cute I can't wait!!! I'm gonna drag them everywhere XD I also preordered the CN exclusive kitty cat kigu nuis, because they're adorable but also because they actually made Madara a calico! FINALLY.

I did a little thread on bsky of songs I like, including a few from LoveLive. Which has been fun! But now I'm just sad about how much I miss playing it ;w; I should really reinstall the hacked version on my phone but like...I just miss the whole thing. I'm really glad I got into enstars, but what if I wanted both??

I KID I KID, I HAVEN'T SKIPPED ANY CLASSES OR ANYTHING!!! I've just been really into making sparkle icons this week, and that's consuming my mind way more than the fact that this is my last semester of college XD

srsly tho someone take photoshop from me, I've done nothing but play enstars and make icons for days~~~~

I dunno, I wanted to make some Love Live icons despite my disappointment in how SIF2 has been handled (sobs), and I didn't think my usual edgelord grunge style worked nearly as well as my other aesthetic: sparkle sparkle. I didn't spend my teens ignoring homework in lieu of making icons for nothing!!!! Now I can make cool shit for myself - and anyone else who wants them - and really, isn't that the most important thing?

When I finally update killiansicons again, it's gonna be a fucking trip, because half the post is gonna be edgy Trigun icons (mostly featuring Knives and Legato, so it's EXTRA) and then....the other half is cutesy sparkly Love Live icons XD I am a man of many talents and layers, okay.

The first two days of classes have gone well, though!!! I had Screenwriting yesterday and then Advanced Creative Writing Workshop today. Tomorrow I have my Creative Nonfiction class, and I'm really looking forward to that. I actually read mostly nonfiction - outside of fanfiction, lmao - so I can't wait to actually get some practice writing it :D

Ohhhhh I have to send a fucking email about registering for my capstone class so I can actually graduate. I'm gonna be working with my favorite professor to really hone the poetry work I've been doing for the past couple years in her classes, so it'll be good. She told me she's gonna push me really hard, as a warning I think? But I'm not in school to stay the same; I wanna improve and become the best writer I can be, so I'm glad she wants to help me get there.

I'm also fucking exhausted because I couldn't sleep last night + my sleep schedule has been destroyed, but I have another half hour before Liz is off work and I can go home. I had to get blood work done after class, so it was kind like "why bother going home when I could sit in a bubble tea place and make icons?" and so here I am. I wanna nap so baaaaaad.

flops on the ground

plz appreciate my icon, I think it's my fave so far and I'm so proud of it. I love combining multiple animations in one icon, even when it's tricky to get it all to line up...I think the end result is SO worth it :D

The past few days have been a blur of 3D printing and my newest tap tap phone game addiction: Ensemble Stars. I've been playing LoveLive since uhhhhh 2015? 2016???? but it's been a fucking shit show. SIF2 is not even close to the original, and it's shutting down in a couple months. Worldwide is apparently launching next month, but it'll only be open for a few months before it also shuts down.

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

lays on the ground sadly

But look I hate change and I really like 1) the songs and 2) the play style of LL, so no other rhythm phone games have stuck for me. UNTIL NOW, APPARENTLY!!!! I even tried enstars a few years back and didn't really care for it, but I guess I just needed to try for a bit longer? I've barely been able to put it down since I started a few days ago XD

ANYWAY. The other important part of this post is 3D printing, namely the inevitability of me printing a bunch of tristamp Knives's blades.......not a million of them but as many as possible XD I bought a 3D model on etsy and it's been.....challenging to get it to work right, to say the least :T


Knives is disappointed in the many failures >:O
Something about the model isn't working right; it's basically too HD???? Pat's brother has been trying to help us sort it out, because where the blades come to their "sharpest" point, it's too narrow for our printer to actually render/print/something???? I dunno. I'm not good at 3D shapes in general and considering we just got this printer a few days ago, it's been a lot of messing around to try to get things to work.

Micro Center did have small packs of fun filament - because of COURSE we went back to get more already - and I also got a big thing of shiny silver to make the blades...once they work right :TTTTT I had to take a break from it for a bit.

Also, classes start tomorrow!!!! It's my last semester at community college :D I'll be graduating with my associates in creative writing after this, and hopefully transferring to complete my bachelors :D I have to work on filling out some transfer applications, but I started them just as I got sick and couldn't really work on them for the past couple weeks.

I'm both nervous and excited, tbh. I kinda thought I'd never finish any sort of college and now here I am, just one semester away from success!!!!!! And my top choice school to transfer to is definitely a reach, but I'm still gonna give it my all~~~~