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setsuntamew) wrote2023-03-13 09:29 am
setsuntamew) wrote2023-03-13 09:29 am
musing on writing and the passage of time
I've been lost in thought the past few days - probably in no small part because I haven't been getting enough sleep lmao - and I've had something positive come from it, at least! I've been writing fanfiction before I even really knew what it was, but I didn't start posting it online until late 2003 (so yes I'm coming up on 20 fucking years of putting fic on the internet)
And like, that's a lot.
But also...I ended up doing a breakdown of how much I've written and when. Because I took a four year break due to Life™ and for awhile, I had it in my mind that I wrote sooooo much more before. I felt like I was writing shit all the time as a teenager!!! But I guess that isn't the case.
From 2003-2011, I published 23 fics (30 if you count the individual drabbles in drabble collections)
insert life related break here (where I still wrote some but never published anything)
From 2015-2023, I published 141 fics (226 if you count the individual drabbles in drabble collections)
And that's a huge difference!!! Each of those chunks of time is 8 years but I wrote so, so much more during the second one. Which is great!!!! I can really see in a solid, measurable number why my writing has improved besides just being older, I guess.
Part of it definitely comes from learning to deal with my ADHD (especially getting medicated for it) and being with someone who is supportive of my writing not just with reading it, but by writing together as well. I've managed to learn how to finish more things but I'm also writing a hell of a lot more than I used to (nervously looks at pile of wips).
So like....I dunno, I'm rambling before 10 am when it feels like it's even earlier thx to the bitch that is daylight savings time AND I keep staying up until like 4 in the goddamn morning due to shitposting about Trigun but like...here I am in my 9 am class rambling about writing and time and how glad I am that I kept at it, because it's such a huge part of my life.
And like, that's a lot.
But also...I ended up doing a breakdown of how much I've written and when. Because I took a four year break due to Life™ and for awhile, I had it in my mind that I wrote sooooo much more before. I felt like I was writing shit all the time as a teenager!!! But I guess that isn't the case.
From 2003-2011, I published 23 fics (30 if you count the individual drabbles in drabble collections)
insert life related break here (where I still wrote some but never published anything)
From 2015-2023, I published 141 fics (226 if you count the individual drabbles in drabble collections)
And that's a huge difference!!! Each of those chunks of time is 8 years but I wrote so, so much more during the second one. Which is great!!!! I can really see in a solid, measurable number why my writing has improved besides just being older, I guess.
Part of it definitely comes from learning to deal with my ADHD (especially getting medicated for it) and being with someone who is supportive of my writing not just with reading it, but by writing together as well. I've managed to learn how to finish more things but I'm also writing a hell of a lot more than I used to (nervously looks at pile of wips).
So like....I dunno, I'm rambling before 10 am when it feels like it's even earlier thx to the bitch that is daylight savings time AND I keep staying up until like 4 in the goddamn morning due to shitposting about Trigun but like...here I am in my 9 am class rambling about writing and time and how glad I am that I kept at it, because it's such a huge part of my life.