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[setsuntamew]

A lotta stuff happened that I don't have the energy to really talk about (hence the radio silence), so here's a list (that's hopefully in chronological order)

1) Chi moved out
2) Ethyl passed away
3) I started my new cake decorating job
4) Liz's mom had/has a health crisis
5) We finally got our tax refund
6) Pat got a new laptop
7) I upgraded my desktop computer for the first time since 2016
8) I quit my new job

I'd say that point number 2 is the reason why I've been fucking distraught and unable to talk about anything else. I just. It was very sudden. She had been fine earlier that day and then had a heart attack while sleeping. I found her. I'm still having freak outs over it, which is really hard since she was under my bed.

Liz and I are gonna rearrange our bedroom just. Yeah. I can't take it.

Also, we're getting her taxidermied, so right now she's in our freezer. Which I thought would fuck me up, but instead it's kinda just so absurd we have to laugh over it. I keep asking Liz to get me "ice water, no Ethyl" and it's helping.

We're all doing so-so, but we're trying our best.